Only God and Ourselves Who Can Understand Ourselves

    Who am i? Why i born in this world? What's my strength and weakness? How can i get a truth happiness? Those questions are spinning in my head recently. Honestly, i don't know if i write right title for this article but that's the thing that i notice recently. My friends, as young people, we are in the process to know about ourselves. We're still in learning process to know about ourselves. I don't know if this case happen to you guys (I'm talking to all young man around the world) but in my case and my society case, many young people who in the same age with me often asking "why you can't understand me?" to their parents, friends, even girlfriend/boyfriend. Why they can't understand you? What do you think? There are a lot of misunderstanding between us and people around us. I experienced it in my life and i'm sure all of you have similar experience like me. In this article, i would like to share my opinion, idea, and experience about understanding ourselves.

    You know my friends, we're not perfect human. My friend said "nobody is perfect. Because we're nobody so we're not perfect" and it's true. Only God who is perfect! So, we can't expect other people understand about what we want, our characters, and our problem. Before we look to other people, look to ourselves. Everything start from ourselves! We have to know who we are, what kind of person we are, what's our strength and weakness. We have to lead ourselves before lead other people. I started to think about this when i confused about my future. 

     I have big dreams that i talked in the last article but to realize it, there are a lot of challenges that i have to take and i confused what should i do after graduate from my University. I often asking my parents before came to Japan "mom, what's my strength and weakness?" I asked that because most of my friends had skills and got many awards. Some of them can play music, sports, good English skill, and many other special skills that could be seen from people's eyes, but me? I don't have such special skills like that. My friends always in front of me and i couldn't show my strength. Even after come to Japan and study at APU for 2 half years, i still didn't find that answer. I asked to my parents again last year when i failed to join APU's organization such as TA (three times apply and all failed), FLAG (three times apply and all failed) and SA (now ALRCS) (four time apply and all failed), and also many scholarship. I was very frustration and upset because my friends got opportunity to get it but i didn't. My parents' answer wasn't change from three years ago. They said "i don't know"! I was surprised because they're raising me since i was child until now but they don't know about my strength. My sister also answer the same answer. That time, i was looking to mirror and ask myself "who am i? What's wrong with me? What's my strength?" Then, pray to my God to help me find the right answer. At that time, i was realized that the only one who can understand me is God and myself. Other people just advising me the right thing but i the one who make decision. 

  I'm sure everyone in my age (20) have similar experience. In the past, when i had girlfriend, we often had misunderstanding because i expect her to understand me. Of course that's not good thing. We can't understand other people my friends. We only can ACCEPT THEM! Accept their good and bad characters. We can't 100% understand other people. We only can 50-60% understand them. We only can accept other people! Accept the societies! Accept the world! Only God and ourselves who can understand ourselves.We can't expect other people understand our character. They can only accept us! However, to accept other people, there're a lot of process to learn.

    How can we understand ourselves? My way are, challenge myself by doing something new, listen other people advice and accept their critics about myself, and evaluate myself about what i've done so far by talking with my heart. I'm re-active my blog is for that also. That's why i'm very happy if you can give me advice, comments, and critics about my blog because what i think right is doesn't mean right for everyone. I'm trying to be good listener and accept other people. Without that, i never know what's wrong with me and how can i improve myself. 

   Like what i said before, i don't wanna be loser. I want to win and i hate to be person who always in the back. I want to be in the front. To be in the front, i must know my strength. I hate failure! I hate to see my friends have something that they're proud but i don't have nothing. I'm still looking for the answer. I'm still don't know exactly who am i and what kind of person i am, but slowly i can see the process to know it. I'm still young and i'm hungry to be success. Before i lead people, societies, and company, i have to lead myself. I cannot accept other people if i can't accept myself. I must accept myself and lead myself! If we can understand ourselves and lead ourselves, I'm sure that we can accept other people good and bad characters. Start everything from ourselves and see what happen! We're still young and still have many times to learn so don't waste our precious time.